Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Appliance question: please respond!

I found someone who will donate a deep upright freezer to us. 
Whoopee! John and I will pick it up tomorrow. 

Now, here's the question....
Someone offered to sell us a fridge and a stove in "excellent condition" for $150 and $125 respectively.
What do you guys think? 
We can either:
a) Go for it and split the cost equally
b) Hold out for something free

For those of you who don't know. We've already gotten a free dryer. 
Not bad. Not bad. I'm leaning towards holding out because we've already poured a lot of money into this house. 
Let me know what you think.
Love, 
Janet

Sunday, July 27, 2008

What it could be

What it could be.

This is from a short story dan lent me, it’s called Walk in the Light While There is Light by Leo Tolstoy. I think you can read the whole thing online for free.

This is one of the best books i've ever read. It has made me understand (in addition to knowing dan :) how the bible looks like in real life. Or, what it could look like. It's so exciting!!!!

Here goes.

Two years passed: Julius completed his studies; and during all that time he did not once see his friend.
One day, however, he met him in the street, invited him home, and began to ask him how and where he lived.
Pamphilius told him he still lived in the same place with his mother.
“We do not live alone,” said he, “but many friends live with us, and we have all things in common.”
“What do you mean ‘in common’?” asked Julius.
“In such a way that none of us considers anything his private property.”
“Why do you do that way?”
“We are Christians,” said Pamphilius.
“Is it possible!” cried Juilius. “Why, I have been told that Christians kill children and eat them. Can it be that you take part in doing such things?
“Come and see,” replied Pamphilius. “We do nothing of the sort; we live simply, trying to do nothing wrong.”
“But how can you live, if you have no property of your own?”
“We support each other. If we give our brethren our labors, then they give us theirs.”
“But if your brethren take your labors and don’t reciprocate, then what?”
“We don’t have such persons,” said Pamphilius; “such persons prefer to live luxuriously, and they don’t join us; life among us is simple, and without luxury.”
“But are there not many lazy ones who would delight in being fed for nothing?”
“Yes, there are some such, and we willingly receive them. Not long ago a man of that character came to us - a runaway slave; at first, it is true, he was lazy, and led a bad life, but soon he changed his life, and has now become one of the good brethren.”
“But supposing he had not ordered his life aright?”
“Well, there are some such. The old man Cyril says that we must treat such as if they were the very best of the brethren, and love them all the more.”
“Can one love good-for-nothings?”
“It is impossible to help loving a human being.”
“but how can you give all men whatever they ask of you?” asked Julius. “If my father gave all persons whatever they asked him for, very soon he wouldn’t have anything left.”
“I don’t know,” replied Pamphilius. “We always have enough left for our necessities. Even if it came about that we had nothing to eat or nothing to wear, then we ask the others and they give to us. yes, it sometimes happens so. Only once did I ever have to go to bed without my supper, and that was because I was very tired and did not feel like going to ask any of the brethren.”
“I don’t know how you do,” said Julius, “only what my father says: if he didn’t have his own property, and if he gave to every one who asked him, he would die of starvation.”
“We don’t! Come and see. We live, and not only do not lack, but we have even more than we need.”
“How can that be?”
“This is the way of it: We all profess one law, but our powers of fulfilling it vary in each individual; some have greater, some have less. One has already made great improvement in the good life, while another has only just begun in it. At the head of us all stands Christ, with His life, and we all try to imitate Him, and in this only we see our well-being. Certain of us, like the old man Cyril and his wife Pelagia, are our leaders; others stand next to them, and still others in a third rank, but all of us are traveling along the same path. Those in advance are already near to the law of Christ - self-renunciation - and they are willing to lose their life in order to save it. These need nothing; they have no regret for themselves, and to those that ask they give their last possession according to the law of Christ. There are others, feebler, who cannot give all they have, who have some pity on themselves, who grow weak if they don’t have their usual dress and food, and cannot give everything away. Then there are others still weaker - such as have only just started on the path; these still live in the old way, keeping much for themselves and giving away only what is superfluous. Even those that linger in the rear give aid to those in the van.”

There is more. Go read it!

What do you guys think about living this way?

"This is not a feel-good post..."

Someone else should probably write about what we did yesterday, not me. Suffice it to say, it was amazing, an incredible amount of work and our hearts were deeply warmed by the caring (and skilled) Lifechurch friends. 
But, I'll leave that story for somebody else to post.  Instead, I'm going to write about what we did today. 

Today (Sunday) we threw one of these out of a truck: 
         

Cute, isn't it? Yes, this bad boy probably weighs around 100 lbs--something which wikipedia thinks makes it "portable." 
Ha. 
Portable, my ass. 
We borrowed a saw like this from someone who goes to Lifechurch for the workday yesterday. It was too late to take it back to the church by the time we finished last night. So, with great effort, we loaded it into John's truck and drove to a friend's house to store it in their backyard overnight.
This morning, sore and tired, John and I woke up early to bring the saw back to Lifechurch. Now, when I say tired, we are really, really tired. 
So, we groggily load it in and I climb into the back to hold it down. 
We pull slowly (read: groggily) out of the driveway and into the street. But at the very first turn, as the truck swerves, the saw shakes to the right, then to the left and then flies violently out of the truck bed and crashes in a huge heap on the road. 
I was using my legs and arms (all 4) to hold this table in place. And as I felt it slip from my fingers I shouted an obscenity that expressed very deeply how we would be feeling for the next 6 hours or so. 
Long story short: We said we were sorry, cried and carried the broken pieces of the saw into church during the middle of the service this morning. 

Lesson learned? None. There were absolutely no life lessons to be learned from this experience. Except that the people at Lifechurch are really, really nice. But I think we already knew that. 

Sunday, July 20, 2008

A desperate entreaty

Hello friends and fellow commoners,
I'm writing you at 11:12 p.m. Sunday. We just got back from working on Sims St. 
We are so close to moving in and so far from making the house liveable. 
Please, please, please, please help.
This week we need to clean up the mess we made from painting and shop for supplies for the people from the church to use on Saturday.
They'll be working from 7 a.m. until early afternoon this Saturday.
Please, please, please, please help.
Thanks,
Janet

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

analogy explanation

i felt like the analogy was true about what i was thinking/feeling but lacked explanation::: the new food is not actually food... maybe i'll be hungrier than i am now, and hopefully less rich. The food is doing god's will and community, things that i do every once in a while, (sometimes it's great, sometimes not). Either way, it probably won't look as extravagant as the way it does when i do it now (the delicacies) but will be more like regular meals... anyhow... i hope that is explanatory... 

Janet, your post a while back makes me breathe easier and remember that fears and other normal-human emotions are OK. It also makes me want this to be beautiful and fulfilling for you and makes me wonder about how i can be a part of that. 

Kimberly, you need to come. I mean, do what's best for you. But come. :)  To your question, we want to have big decisions be a consensus of everyone living there if at all possible. We haven't had a lot of discussions/decisions about things to happen in the house as of yet..

Dan, I'm interested in simplicity too. I'm interested in whatever you're interested in, because you're living a beautiful life that i want mine to be more similar to.

John, thank you, thank you, for your words about God... Let's do that, yes, yes. I want that very much. Thanks for talking about God -- and for not letting us have bullshit! lives. 

And so.. just a few thoughts in addition.. I was thinking today of a good analogy for my thoughts towards the whole thing. It was hard, because there's a lot of different factors about everything to consider, but analogies are very, very helpful to me. I finally decided on one, after many attempts. 

I kind of feel like I am like a very constantly-hungry person who is going to live in a foreign, very food-filled place. In the place that i live now, when i do eat, it has been of a lot of these random delicacies that sometimes are very nutritious, sometimes very much not, and it's been hard on my body.

But the place i'm traveling to has the foods that i was made to be eating, and a lot of it. And I think, at first, the new food won't feel "right" at first (sometimes a person with anorexia's digestion system has a hard time processing the food it needs after going without it for so long) and i might not even like the taste of it, but after a while, my body will adjust to getting the nutrients it needs, and I'll get used to the taste and will probably love it much more than any of the delicacies i was eating before (like how sushi takes a few tries before you actually like it). 

These are my thoughts. No pressure: I think the above will happen over time no matter what, just situationally, a group of people doing the things we want to do, but am also OK with it being bad and hard at times.

I think what we're doing may be very close to the type of life we're "supposed" to live, and am so serenely happy i get to do it. And sometimes worried, and sometimes wanting to control, but mostly very grateful... to be eating... regularly..