Janet, your post a while back makes me breathe easier and remember that fears and other normal-human emotions are OK. It also makes me want this to be beautiful and fulfilling for you and makes me wonder about how i can be a part of that. 

Kimberly, you need to come. I mean, do what's best for you. But come. :)  To your question, we want to have big decisions be a consensus of everyone living there if at all possible. We haven't had a lot of discussions/decisions about things to happen in the house as of yet..

Dan, I'm interested in simplicity too. I'm interested in whatever you're interested in, because you're living a beautiful life that i want mine to be more similar to.

John, thank you, thank you, for your words about God... Let's do that, yes, yes. I want that very much. Thanks for talking about God -- and for not letting us have bullshit! lives. 

And so.. just a few thoughts in addition.. I was thinking today of a good analogy for my thoughts towards the whole thing. It was hard, because there's a lot of different factors about everything to consider, but analogies are very, very helpful to me. I finally decided on one, after many attempts. 

I kind of feel like I am like a very constantly-hungry person who is going to live in a foreign, very food-filled place. In the place that i live now, when i do eat, it has been of a lot of these random delicacies that sometimes are very nutritious, sometimes very much not, and it's been hard on my body.

But the place i'm traveling to has the foods that i was made to be eating, and a lot of it. And I think, at first, the new food won't feel "right" at first (sometimes a person with anorexia's digestion system has a hard time processing the food it needs after going without it for so long) and i might not even like the taste of it, but after a while, my body will adjust to getting the nutrients it needs, and I'll get used to the taste and will probably love it much more than any of the delicacies i was eating before (like how sushi takes a few tries before you actually like it). 

These are my thoughts. No pressure: I think the above will happen over time no matter what, just situationally, a group of people doing the things we want to do, but am also OK with it being bad and hard at times.

I think what we're doing may be very close to the type of life we're "supposed" to live, and am so serenely happy i get to do it. And sometimes worried, and sometimes wanting to control, but mostly very grateful... to be eating... regularly..