oh land-lordy! ... sponges... and the bullshit-negator

hey guys, i haven't had any luck getting phil on the phone to talk about the necessary repairs, rent, etc. so, for you prayin' types, if you want to pray that he doesn't throw us any loops with that, it would be good. god is good, and it will all fall together regardless.

speaking of that, i feel like we haven't been talking too much about god's role,or g-d's role for you mewithoutYou types, in all this. i really want him to be our source, our motivator, and our backbone. i feel like sometimes i just want to live with a cool group of people that do things that make me feel good about myself and not part of the PROBLEM. but a good deal of me has been saying to the other bit of me- Bullshit! you are thinking you are doing a good thing but it is bullshit! and i kept wondering why i kept feeling like i was calling bullshit! on myself (this is all in my head and perhaps unintelligible). maybe i've been thinking too much about how i want it to be, and how i want it to look. i feel like god nudged me today to get me to ease up and just think about how great it will be to have him love on us and love each other. i guess because i only partly know some of you, that is harder for me to visualize. i feel like i could try to bullshit! love you, but then that would make me part of the PROBLEM. so, i really want to be asking god to make my heart know its need for him, and to want to soak him up. and maybe, as a bunch of wet sponges, we'll be good at loving each other.
i think maybe i've been thinking about this because in the last few weeks i've been observing the differences in personality, methods of communication, and preferences we have. holy shit it's going to flop if we don't have love! so dan, kim, janet, thanks for being vulnerable and saying true things.